I feel awful today. I was out late last night and then I came home and cried for another hour. So, I laid down at 2:30am and got up at 6. Depressed and tired do not mix. I learned a few things this week.
1. I am terrible at karaoke.
2. I will be under appreciated for the rest of my life.
3. I'm not even remotely beautiful compared to at least 85% of the population.
4. #3= basically I'm not going anywhere because beauty is the treasure of this world
5. I'm tired of 2-4 I carry that weight with me everyday.
6. 1 doesn't really bother me. I think it's great. :-)
7. Don't tell me how crazy girls are. I'm not crazy. I'm just not pretty enough for you.
8. I would love to find someone for me but I'm pretty sure Flo-Bama is not the place.
9. Not that anyone would look at me anyway.
10. I really would like to be beautiful for a day just to see how it feels. People treat you different.
11. Dreaming only gets me hurt.
12. I think I might become a hermit.
13. Some days I would rather be anyone else.
14. I know in my head I'm not completely worthless but my heart doesn't believe I have any value .
15. Nothing anyone says can change the way I feel.
16. I'm not really sure what I did to deserve any of this.
17. I understand that God doesn't want me to be depressed.
18. I am blessed and loved.
19. I'm still never going to be pretty enough.
20. It makes me sad.
Later
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